how unlucky can u get?

im running some 38degs fever which is like hell to me. it has been like how many donkey years since i last had my fever. so now i got nowhere to go, no chitchat gossips and ranting with my buddies, no johor supper with my family, and most most most importantly, not gg out with her.

nvm. i shall be a good boy and stay home and accompany my parents. my my, im reli a fillial son.

and yah, ive applied for my uni admission ler. kinda troublesome though. still need to 'appraise' myself. its like some " halo? im siyan and i love scouting and all my frenz think im cool and diligent. i will be sucha great asset to ur institution. do consider me yea?"

i so love boasting myself.

ok back to the point. was applying for ntu and they asked to write and describe an event/ person which has affected u somehow or rather. and suddenly many thing popped out in my head : scouting events? school events? embarassing moments? / my mother? my father? my sister? my gramps?

all of a sudden, a ray of light shone upon me and i thought of him...

yesh. behold! Jawaharlal Nehru, the first prime minister of India!!


please. dun ask me why i will think of writing abt him. its juz happened dat i was being enlightened by dat ray of light ( mah la kor las ka mas la kor).

and i decided to give up entering for uni and instead, find a bodhi tree and attain nirvana.

BAH~

i was in this OBS WATCH called nehru. and we had to research ( given the limted tech in pulau ubin) on the political leaders. there were oso other great national leaders and pioneers such as elizabeth choy and and and... ok i forgot.

although i dunno whether issit alrite to write abt prominent political leaders for dat qn. i juz wrote.

and mind you. given my c6 gp, u can expect the admission office to simply throw my application into the junk.

but i dun care. for the glory of the great Jawaharal Nehru shines upon me.

and if u dun even know who the hell he is. i reli think u shd find urself a decent well and drown urself, or dash out and get squashed by a lorry, or stuff tonnes of anti-biotics inside ur mouth, or simply eat parsley.

okok. u get the idea

ok. i shall end this entry with one of my brilliant works ( notice the plural). for her.














jealous? dun be. =)

juz came back from a scout's camp. damn tired and shagged
and since most of my readers r not scouts. i shan't go into details about how screwed and stressed up a scout can get. especially when u r borned in the rabbit year.

was talking to my parents regarding my uni choices. lucky for me, there r quite supportive of the courses ive chosen. so i think i would juz stick to it and see how it goes.

and if u hav forgotten abt it. ive ard 20 days till D-day. so yea.

i yearn for a short break. but given all the things dat i have to worried abt. it seems dat i will never get it. spare me pls.

and yah, after sucha long time, i think the locks muz be kinda rusty now. and no one is providing the lubricant i guess.

ok. it seems like the whole issue is getting nowhere. so im juz gonna jump straight to the point.

frenz wu hav no idea of wat the hell happened, would juz lend u a listening ear. and sayang u like some teddy bear.

frenz wu hav a clear picture of wat the hell is going on, would also lend u a listening ear but deliver a tight slap to wake u up after everythin.

as simple as dat.

true frenz play mean and harsh. coz they r the onli ones daring enuff to slap u.

if i were u, i would juz take dat slap and wake up. instead of hiding and seeking other frens' comfort.

dats wat i think. and im so sick of everythin. please.

i oways love this pic. i still am.
=)

when the time comes, dun say i never tell or advise u.

when u realise who is more impt, u will never get the chance to appreciate them again.

when u know u r in the wrong, u wont be able to ask for forgiveness.

when u start to regret, it will all be too late.


u choose ur own way. and i respect ur decision. no matter how sad i would be.

ok. im gg to start whining now. i studied and mugged like nobody's business. and this? this?!

my mom was happy when i told her abt my results. wat to do, shes oredi happy dat i actually improved from a 197PSLE score to such grades now.

but still... i know myself best

ive been asking everyone whether i shd be happy or sad coz my grades r far too average.

like my msn nick suggests : not high not low. not good not bad. middle of nowhere. shd i be happy or sad?

some told me dat with this grades, i sure can get into the local uni.

but still... i know myself best

i dunno y. but i get so worried when i dunno which route i shd choose.

u see. if i got bad grades, i would most probably be happy. coz at least i know i shd start finding for a decent private uni or watever poly courses.

and if i got good grades, i would most probably be happy too. wu wont.

but u see. im like so stuck in the middle. wat if my grades r not enuff for a local uni? wat if i cannot get into a local uni? wat if wat if...

my sis told me to rest assured dat i can get into a local uni course. but u see, shes not the principal of nus ntu or smu. so yea.

and having such funni grades, my options r of cuz limited. very limited. the admission office ppl will juz glance and delete my application after seeing dat 'no-big-deal' grades.

but im kinda glad dat i passed my gp though. my close frenz shd know dat i oways suck in gp. its like forever failing, even for my prelims.

but still... so wat if i passed my gp. my subjs grades r still atrocious.

pls tell me wat to do...

my sister happy. my dad happy. my mom happy. im not happy.