i was wondering,
wat if 50 years hav passed,
will my frenz still be there with mi?
or will them or mi myself, forgot totally abt each other?
i really pondered
50 yrs down the road, maybe i will be so busy handlin abt my own family life dat my frenz became 'normal goods' to mi
i dun know
and i dun wan to know
close frenz i hav now, will they still rmb mi?
or would i still rmb them even?
so many questions, i juz couldnt ans them all now
will they be there to support mi spiritually when i need help?
or even
will they be weepin and prayin for mi while standin beside my casket
or will they don even know dat some insignificant fiure like mi hav passed on
i dunt know
i reli hope our frenship can lasts for eternity
until we started to c each other being free in heaven
i swear i will be cryin for god sake if one of my frenz for more than 50 yrs is passin away
i swear
i cant even imagine it now
u will be standin there, reminsisin the past, think abt the good times u used to hav with him/her.
tears juz flow down ur cheeks
u cant withstand it
or at least , i couldnt
i can tell u now,
dat im afraid of dyin
if u tell mi now 'everyone has to die eventually, there's nth to scare of'
i beg to differ
the most heart-wrenchin thin is not whether u died anot,
it is whther ur frenz will be surroundin u and hopin u can be with them the next life
and whether ur frenz will be sobbin and cryin out loud when u hav passed on
or whether dat no one even come for u
no one cares.
will u be there?

imagine urself lying on the bed, when u know u cant live any longer, wat would u wan to c?
no one?
or all ur frenz standin ard u, cryin.

u will cry, not dat u r afraid of dyin, but dat u dun wan to lose ur frenz.
u will cry, for wat they hav done for u
u will cry, dat they still rmb u
u will cry, onli for ur frenz

u will cry, coz u will foreva be rmbed

at that moment,

tears will flow down

tears of happiness.