hihi!!!! todae's a big day, not for mi, but for PJ and rachel

happy birthday!!!! ( if u happen to c this)

so, doing my econs case study now. it totally sux.

not goin got hav any venture meeting this coming saturday. so i can spend more time studying.

but no one wans to go outside and study with mi. im been ostracized.

wu wans go out study muz ask mi along leh. don boycott mi.

lots of hwks and testd coming up. cant handle it all.

but i hav no choice. face it man.

everyday , reli everyday, whenever i met some obstacles in my studies, i will oways wonder y not stop studying now so dat i will be MUCH MORE 'carefree'.

reli, y suffer wakin up early everyday, havin to do G.P, havin to overcome the fatigue, havin to go home late, restless.

so y continue studyin...

maybe i made a wrong choice to JC

poly may be a better choice for me instead.

my mom oways hope dat i can go into poly

weird thinkin, other moms hopes that son/daughter can enter a Jc.

but its happen that mine isnt.

she scared that i couldnt cope with my studies, after seeing how my sister suffered so much.

after gotten back the promo results, she still 'psycho' mi to go to poly early since i now onli wasted one year, better than i fail my 'A's and waste another year.

sometimes i agree with wat she said.

but even with i cant cope with my studies NOW, i wouldnt go to poly

i don know y.

maybe im juz being slothful.

better than commiting suicide rite.

hah.