its been a long time since i blog
sorri for those wu clicked on my link and still c the same old entry over and over again
im going for medical checkup tomolo
for the pre-NS enlistment
and the opportunity cost that i have to face are
1) less time to study
2) my math mock test
3) my econs test

c!! im way behind time now
everythins seems so rush, so hectic
my close frenz will know that im oways ellin them now and then that im going to die
and ironically, they supported my brilliant idea
so if one day im going to commit suicide, my dear frenz will be the culprits ultimately.

i reli cant stand it man
im oways procrastinatin
so many distractions at home
wat shd i do??!!
sometimes i reli hope doomsday arrives
so dat i nid not worry abt been lag behind or study too lil
coz in the end, we still hav to die~~!!!

im still ponderin abt wat will the NS officers do to mi when im there for medical checkup
of cuz, as usual, hav to strip
but wat cai er told mi reli scares mi
ask him if u wanna know

and for yr info, im still havin 'cold war' with my sister
and my parents oways approached mi and ask mi to give in
y muz i oways be the one givin in and lettin her 'win'
i don get it
so, im not going to give in
until the day she finally realise that she is nth but a spoilt stubborn mule

and my room is in a mess now
how i wish i could burn my whole room down
of cuz without being slaughtered by my parents.
i feel so ... so... so... so... depressed now
i loathe this education system
its juz drivin mi nuts
and i wonder how those smart nerds can handle all this
they might hav not even been to town be4 i guess
get a life man.

and so...
i will continue my journey in shapin myself as a full-time study nerd
wish mi luck.