aiyaya

its being reli a long time since i last blog.
So juz bear with mi, got lotsa things to share
some of my teachers was actually puzzled about y teenagers nowsday r 'obsessed' with bloggin.
generation gap i guess. they were sayin in the past , diaires r meant to be kept secret, as it contains some personal info dat one dosent feel like sharin.
but for now, the concept has changed so much dat 'online diaries' is oredi a hot topic
but, i think passion falls with time
juz like infatuation.
u like somethin which u think is pleasant, but as time goes by, u juz start to neglect it and moved on.
im wouldnt deny dat i hav infatuation be4.
but perhaps, it makes mi think more maturely.
how to accept some truth dat u don wish to hear
how to accept facts dat will eventually breaks ur heart
some truth r juz too complex and heart-breakin dat one doesnt wish to share
juz like my venture leaders...
for some, u all may hav heard abt the 'mass quittin' of my venture leaders
they gave us some reasons y they chose to quit
but i guess there muz be more behind it
its some kind of a difference in ideologies
they chose to use the phrase 'move on' rather then 'quitting'
i can actually understand y
they still hav passion for scouting, dats obvious
but when circumstances disallow, they hav to do somethin in order to make them not lose out
i don know. perhaps its the case here
okae next. some of my classmates may heard abt mi quarellin with my sister.
i onli explained the actual real thin to felicia, and the past relationship between my siser and i.
tis kinda childish if u ask mi
but actually, she's the one makin the fuss out of everythin
even my mom is startin to get pissed off with her
yesh, pissed off
i hav actually gotten over with it
she's the one wu refuses to give in
she's juz wan to save some face for herself
dats all
dast wats in chinese call' jia jia you ben nan yen de jing'
my han yu pin yin sux. don mind pls.
tomolo is the survivor camp at pulau ubin
gonna hav lotsa fun i guess
hah.
i was scolded by my peers for not takin any further action in establishin relationships
as in BGR
not dat im being bhb or wat.
even though im been approached by some girls, strangers of cuz, bfore.
i think looks is not reli an impt factor
although it adds in as a huge bonus.
i know im ugly.
but its the fact- would anyone be brave enuff to tell another person dat he/she looks horrible
right?
im juz 'an ugly ducklin tryin to act and behave like swan'
pathetic isnt it.
no wonder my valentines' day is oways lonely.
maybe im juz waitin for the right one.
see. im providin more excuses for my 'singlehood'
there's so many flaws abt myself.
indecisive, UGLY, irritatin, annoyin, naggy, 'perfectionist-wanna-be;
juz to name a few
haha. im going to be the next bachelor i guess
busy nowaday with lotsa stuffs
-hwks, class tests, common tests, assignments
-scoutin
these r the major ones.
im so stressed up dat i actaully told my mother dat im may study until i commit suicide in front of her.
dat obviously freak her out
but those r juz anger words
im juz unhappy abt studyin all day long and no much freedom is given to mi
although my mom oredi try to fulfill stuffs i wish to hav
thanz mom, ur the best.
and yah, sorri abt my strange behaviour in sch these past two days
im know im not myself
but not mad at any of u
im juz tryin to be alone so dat i can tok less and learn more
maybe u tot im juz givin excuses.
but don worry, u all r still my good frenz
im juz tryin to peace out. dats all.
my old self will be back sooner of lata i guess.
haha. split personality.