i shall be nice and blog somethin before i go to sleep.

as most of yall know. wed is D-day. instead of freaking out now and jumping ard my house, im actually fine with everythin. no sudden panic attacks no sleepless nights no white hairs.

maybe its becoz of all the rumours before it dat got me so mentally prepared dat im kinda 'invulnerable' to this. But still, i know ( since i was 12) the seriousness of not getting good results for A's. but i cant do anythin abt it rite. its as if they will return back our scripts and let us bargain for dat xtra mark that might cause a dramatic change to our future.

so i prefer sticking to my original plan : be optimistic.

u see. there is nth much we can do if we got bad grades, except for crying and complainin to everyone dat uve actually put in so much effort but still culdnt achieve the required grades. but i know for myself, i didnt.

but i prefer a more practical move : findin and sourcing ard for an alternative route. be it NIE private uni or poly. its alot better than locking urself up for several weeks and staring at the certificate which cant reli do anythin abt it. unless yall mad enuff to blanko it and start imaginatin how wonderful ur life would be if u hav those remarkable grades. yea dream on.

and if ure a lucky bastard and got good grades. PLEASE, for goodness sake , PLEASE be considerate and go console ur frenz wu isnt so lucky as u r. and DUN, for goodness sake, DUN go ard hao-lianing abt ur grades and boast abt which uni courses u wanna get into.

and if u happen to be not blind. pls do not be dumb enuff to approach ur fren wu's crying like nobody business and start askin him/her abt his/her grades. unless u wanna a tight slap at ur bloody face. if not, a gentle tap on the shoulders or a hug or a word of encouragement will do juz fine. so if u happened to see me alone and having that sucidal look........ yea.

it funni that im actually writing all these out. since im oso in this position of getting back my results ( or my future dat is). or juz pray that someone went bonkers and started killing everyone in HCI, RJC or watever top JCs there is.

ok. till den. my fate's sealed.

and i still hate diving.